I wasn't blessed with the striking essence of a flame or even the delicate beauty of a rose; more like a dandelion among dandelions. I've got the grandparents. You know the ones: "Oh, you should hear what our beautiful first grandbaby is doing with her wonderful life." Mom and Pops are traditional, yet highly unconventional...if you can still call a blended family unconventional. Which I suppose you really can't nowadays. It's the 60-year anniversaries that get "oohs and ahs", but that's just modernization at its finest. I've got a very small handful of friends. At times I ask myself why I don't have more and then recall all the occasions where I've retreated in my shell at social events...oh the magnitude of the status quo. The cliques that start in elementary school with mommy and daddy's social classes and who participates in the PTA or not; as long as Sally wears Ralph Lauren and her daddy is the local dentist, she's automatically in the cool kids club. I never got an invitation to such a club, because I wore Wal-Mart brand and my parents were too busy juggling their mediocre jobs and five kids to attend meetings where adults act like high school kids; who judge the single mother with rice in her hair for not being rich enough to afford a nanny while she plays tennis with her snobby friends whose husbands are probably fucking their secretaries. I guess I turned out okay though. The few friends I do have are there for better or worse. For better or worse...well that's another topic all in itself, but we'll get to that. We're still concentrating on my average looks and dim personality. So needless to say, I'm no one special; just your average Southern belle with a lack of Southern charm. Oh goodness me, I did forget to mention one tiny detail: I've had 226 partners in my life (or was it 227?)thus far and I just celebrated my 25th birthday. Yeah Gramps, go on and tell everyone what exactly your first grand baby is doing with her fabulous life.

Just something I've been working on...no its obviously not about me although I may have thrown a few of my characteristics in there :) It's just a rough draft and nowhere near completion and I don't even know where Im going with it quite yet. But opinions, thoughts, and suggestions are appreciated and welcomed :)