"bravery is being the only one who knows you're afraid"

I changed the name of my blog to better suit what many of my future posts will be about.
I am an army wife. An army wife supporting her deployed husband.
While his deployment has not quite started, he is in training and I do go through long and/or short periods of time where i cannot see him.
i have always dreamed of being an army wife. For some reason, it all just seemed so romantic to me. In most of the military books i ever read, the authors portrayed military life romantically and i wanted nothing more than to be the woman with children who is always behind her husband because he is fighting for our country. to be the woman who ran up to her husband after a year's deployment on that happy day when our soldiers return home. to be the woman who surrounds herself with other military wives and they become her best friends.
my husband has not been deployed. that begins on january 14th.
but already, the romanticism of military life that the media portrays is well...false.

Army wives prayer
Dear Lord,
Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he's away. And Lord, when he's in a foreign land, keep him safe in your loving hand. And Lord, when duty is in the field, please protect him and be his shield. And Lord, when deployment is so long, please stay with me and keep me strong. Amen.